so the college lifestyle is really catching up with me, i feel like i’ve never been closer to homelessness than i am now. unfortunately i’m working 6 days a week and still don’t have the money to afford the things i want. its an undesirable lifestyle that im choosing to endure during the next few years. an older friend of mine tells me im restless because im feeling so stuck between being a kid and an adult that its hard. im not sure that there is anyway to move through these years but im not sure why i want to move through them so quickly. its sad cause i know ill regret trying to rush this time in my life but i feel so uneasy in my life right now it causes stress.
it just takes some time, little girl youre in the middle of the ride. everything everything will be just fine everything, everything will be alright alright
a change in scenery can really make you appreciate what you grow accustom to in the day to day. i truly took advantage of the beauty and freedom that my apartment had to offer while i was away at college. I moved back home and its like you go from having the world at your fingertips to barely being able to move a muscle without red flags flying.
For these obvious reasons i have created a short list of why going away to college is a beautiful thing:
1. Your parents cant just “stop by” unannounced. Its one thing to have your parents able to simply swing by your abode, but this is something that just doesn’t happen when you go away to school, and trust me… its a wonderful thing.
2. Parties. Okay so yes there are parties at colleges, yes parties with drugs, sex and kegstands. With this said sometimes it seems like the priorities get a bit twisted… yup you can go away to college and party every night no questions asked. It can be both a blessing and curse, especially without those parents of yours around.
3. Freedom. as Janis Joplin said, “freedom’s just another word for nothing left to lose” this statement rings so true when it comes to college this new freedom in every sense of your being is just you starting from the bottom, with nothing to lose. honestly, sure people go away to college but its simply just the beginning of this sort of adult-ish in between period of your life. this stage is basically absolute freedom to eat, speak and represent yourself as an adult. where mostly your only use for parents is financial, and man do they hold that over your head.
so go ahead, take the leap and go away to college, 9 times out of 10 you wont regret it.
maybe its a game, you win some and you lose some; but when you find a good one, dont let her get away. dont let her go.
these words just make me wonder, i’ve been searching for my soulmate when im still so young. im not sure that i fully believe in soulmates but i know that the worst thing is when you find yours but for one reason or another you cant be with that person. this is what makes me believe that the idea of soulmates is definitely just something out of a fairytale.
i dont know about soulmates but i know that love is like a field of wild flowers on a warm summer day. You’re driving along an old back road and you happen upon it. You cant go searching for it you just have to just stumble upon it.Sure you can stop and take a picture, look back and reminisce about it remembering it is on of the best things that you ever experienced. All because you decided to go driving one day.
maybe that’s my problem, if i stop searching so much and just sit back and enjoy the ride ill stumble upon it.